I sat on Chloe’s bed and cried my last tear. I can’t believe the only person in the world that actually cared about me was gone. Chloe brought me a glass of water. We’ll be ok she said rubbing my back. I just don’t understand who would do something to her like that I thought. She was adorable despite her temper she actually wasn’t a bad person and she was rarely in drama. I know Chloe agreed but we have to stay strong and do better for Kiki she’ll appreciate it. Chloe was right now that my bff is gone I have to start making more smart decisions. Starting with Dru I have to cut him loose I know Kiki would be proud of me. I have to go I said to Chloe. You sure you don’t want to stay here she asked for the 50th time. I’m ok I replied. I know Chloe was just trying to help but her house was not making the situation any better with her mother asking the same questions over and over. Well if anything goes wrong promise you’ll come back Chloe said looking more serious than I ever. Promise I said rushing out of the rusty apartment. I walked down the dark street alone with no destination. Ayee I heard a voice nearby. I looked back to find a boy dressed in all black. I walked faster. Aye wait up the boy ran towards me. I recognized it was Beans (Dru’s best friend). What you doin walkin these streets by yoself he asked? Just getting some air I replied. Girl you know you can’t be walkin by yoself its dangerous out here he replied laughing. I looked at him clueless because I couldn’t understand what was funny. So what you too good to laugh now he asked? Not in the mood I replied. You seen Dru I bluntly asked. Not since yesterday he said. Well alright I said walking off. Aye he said again. I stopped. Lemme give you a ride Beans offered. Thanks but I’m fine I replied. Look you don’t need to be walkin alone its crazy over here you saw what happened to Kiki he said. I flashed back to seeing the ambulance carry her away with her blood all on the ground. C’mon he insisted. Where’s your car I curiously asked. It’s right up the street he replied. We walked quietly to his Benz. You know we don’t have to be silent Beans said as we got in the car. I just looked at him. I don’t really feel like being friendly. So you going home right he asked? Actually can u drop me off at the redline train station. Dam girl where you headed too he asked. None of your business I snapped back. He paused and then drove off. I gatta stop at the crib and grab sumin ok he said. Don’t ask me it’s your car I said snobby. Why the attitude though? I didn’t reply to his stupidity. We pulled up to this dusty house. You cumin in he asked. I’m good I replied. No you’re cumin in I’m not leaving u out here by yoself. I got out the car because I didn’t feel like arguing with him. We stepped into the dark junky house. You can have a seat on the couch Beans offered turning the light on. I rather stand thank you I said sarcastically. Yo what the fuck is yo problem Beans yelled. You right now I replied rolling my eyes. Whatever man he said walking into his room. Beans were aggressive with everything and everybody. I remember once when he was dating Kiki and he broke her arm. She didn’t want to admit to me he did it but I knew the truth. He was also the biggest dope man on the block. Nobody fucked with Beans they knew better. But for some reason I wasn’t scared of him. He didn’t frighten me one bit. It was all a front to me. Yo hurry up I yelled. Shut up he hollered back. What the fuck you doin I said bursting in his room. He was butt naked. Dam I said looking him up and down. Shit Starr a nigga can’t get dressed. My bad I said staring at his big dick. You like what you see he said with a sneaky smirk. Boy please you aint gat nothing I said stepping out of the room. You scared he said laughing. Of what I said folding my arms. He approached me and started kissing my lips. His lips were soft and his kiss was deep. He slipped his hand up my shirt and un-loosened my bra. What am I doing I thought to myself. Dru would kill me I kept thinking. Beans laid me on the bed kissing my body. Stop I said softly. What’s wrong he said continuing to un-buckle my pants. I can’t I replied. C’mon he said sucking on my neck. He tied me down tight so I wouldn’t get up. No I tried to break loose but his grip got tighter. Stop I yelled but he continued with no hesitation and un-protected. The night was long and cold. Just as I thought my life couldn’t get any worse I get raped. I walked to the corner in pain and sat under a tree. I cried and cried and cried until my face was swollen. I remembered once when my mama told me to never let anyone hurt me. She never showed me how to protect myself though. I’ve never felt lonelier before. I had nobody by my side. My auntie didn’t want me, Dru doesn’t love me, my BFF is dead, and my mama is gone. I wondered why god took away all my strengths and left me weakness. I thought about the last person that may be able to help me “Karen”. I began walking to her house. I knew it would take a while. I took my time because I was sore and also scared. The last time I seen her she was riding in the back seat of a police car. I turned back around. I had changed my mind. I began walking back to Crystal house. She can’t just leave me on the streets she’s my guardian. I walked into the apartment. It was just how I left it. The broken glass was still on the floor and everything. I figured Crystal would be gone anyway. She’s never home. I walked into my room and lay on my bed. It’s been a long time since I’ve laid here. I felt relieved. I fell asleep staring at the ceiling wondering.
