Chapter 8 ( Star's Interlude)

I sat on Chloe’s bed and cried my last tear. I can’t believe the only person in the world that actually cared about me was gone. Chloe brought me a glass of water. We’ll be ok she said rubbing my back. I just don’t understand who would do something to her like that I thought. She was adorable despite her temper she actually wasn’t a bad person and she was rarely in drama. I know Chloe agreed but we have to stay strong and do better for Kiki she’ll appreciate it. Chloe was right now that my bff is gone I have to start making more smart decisions. Starting with Dru I have to cut him loose I know Kiki would be proud of me. I have to go I said to Chloe. You sure you don’t want to stay here she asked for the 50^th time. I’m ok I replied. I know Chloe was just trying to help but her house was not making the situation any better with her mother asking the same questions over and over. Well if anything goes wrong promise you’ll come back Chloe said looking more serious than I ever. Promise I said rushing out of the rusty apartment. I walked down the dark street alone with no destination. Ayee I heard a voice nearby. I looked back to find a boy dressed in all black. I walked faster. Aye wait up the boy ran towards me. I recognized it was Beans (Dru’s best friend). What you doin walkin these streets by yoself he asked? Just getting some air I replied. Girl you know you can’t be walkin by yoself its dangerous out here he replied laughing. I looked at him clueless because I couldn’t understand what was funny. So what you too good to laugh now he asked? Not in the mood I replied. You seen Dru I bluntly asked. Not since yesterday he said. Well alright I said walking off. Aye he said again. I stopped. Lemme give you a ride Beans offered. Thanks but I’m fine I replied. Look you don’t need to be walkin alone its crazy over here you saw what happened to Kiki he said. I flashed back to seeing the ambulance carry her away with her blood all on the ground. C’mon he insisted. Where’s your car I curiously asked. It’s right up the street he replied. We walked quietly to his Benz. You know we don’t have to be silent Beans said as we got in the car. I just looked at him. I don’t really feel like being friendly. So you going home right he asked? Actually can u drop me off at the redline train station. Dam girl where you headed too he asked. None of your business I snapped back. He paused and then drove off. I gatta stop at the crib and grab sumin ok he said. Don’t ask me it’s your car I said snobby. Why the attitude though? I didn’t reply to his stupidity. We pulled up to this dusty house. You cumin in he asked. I’m good I replied. No you’re cumin in I’m not leaving u out here by yoself. I got out the car because I didn’t feel like arguing with him. We stepped into the dark junky house. You can have a seat on the couch Beans offered turning the light on. I rather stand thank you I said sarcastically. Yo what the fuck is yo problem Beans yelled. You right now I replied rolling my eyes. Whatever man he said walking into his room. Beans were aggressive with everything and everybody. I remember once when he was dating Kiki and he broke her arm. She didn’t want to admit to me he did it but I knew the truth. He was also the biggest dope man on the block. Nobody fucked with Beans they knew better. But for some reason I wasn’t scared of him. He didn’t frighten me one bit. It was all a front to me. Yo hurry up I yelled. Shut up he hollered back. What the fuck you doin I said bursting in his room. He was butt naked. Dam I said looking him up and down. Shit Starr a nigga can’t get dressed. My bad I said staring at his big dick. You like what you see he said with a sneaky smirk. Boy please you aint gat nothing I said stepping out of the room. You scared he said laughing. Of what I said folding my arms. He approached me and started kissing my lips. His lips were soft and his kiss was deep. He slipped his hand up my shirt and un-loosened my bra. What am I doing I thought to myself. Dru would kill me I kept thinking. Beans laid me on the bed kissing my body. Stop I said softly. What’s wrong he said continuing to un-buckle my pants. I can’t I replied. C’mon he said sucking on my neck. He tied me down tight so I wouldn’t get up. No I tried to break loose but his grip got tighter. Stop I yelled but he continued with no hesitation and un-protected. The night was long and cold. Just as I thought my life couldn’t get any worse I get raped. I walked to the corner in pain and sat under a tree. I cried and cried and cried until my face was swollen. I remembered once when my mama told me to never let anyone hurt me. She never showed me how to protect myself though. I’ve never felt lonelier before. I had nobody by my side.  My auntie didn’t want me, Dru doesn’t love me, my BFF is dead, and my mama is gone. I wondered why god took away all my strengths and left me weakness. I thought about the last person that may be able to help me “Karen”. I began walking to her house. I knew it would take a while. I took my time because I was sore and also scared. The last time I seen her she was riding in the back seat of a police car. I turned back around. I had changed my mind. I began walking back to Crystal house. She can’t just leave me on the streets she’s my guardian. I walked into the apartment. It was just how I left it. The broken glass was still on the floor and everything. I figured Crystal would be gone anyway. She’s never home. I walked into my room and lay on my bed. It’s been a long time since I’ve laid here. I felt relieved. I fell asleep staring at the ceiling wondering.  

Chapter 7

This chapter is Amber’s point of view of the story. This scene is before Starr left Dru’s grandma house and she caught him at Amber house. This might get a little x-rated so if you under the age of 15 then maybe u shouldn’t read this. Sorry for taking so long to write this chapter but I hope you enjoy!! Love Jhay J

          I looked at myself in the mirror in the bathroom, fixed my hair a little bit and put on my Pink Friday Mac lip stick. Dam I’m sexy I said to myself. I opened the door and returned to my room where Dru was waiting for me. Dam baby he licked his lips and looked at me. Bring yo ass over here he said again. I hopped on top of him and started kissing him he squeezed my ass as I kissed his neck down to his chest, to his stomach, and then his dick. I started sucking his dick harder and harder. He starts pulling my hair and then he came all over my mouth. I hopped on his dick and start riding it faster and faster. “Aahhhh” I kept moaning louder and louder. Dru squeezed my big tities as I rode his dick. He flipped me over and fucked me in the ass. Pounding my shit, a tear fell from my eyes. I bit my lip and said “go harder go harder “while rubbing my clit.  The best part was his head. This niggas tongue game was insane. He started licking my pussy softy and then he bit it, sticking his tongue in and out my pussy. I felt it in my stomach it was so good. I kept coming and he licked it all up. It was getting more interesting until my annoying ass brother Christian busted in. Am-ber he looked more confused than ever. Get out I yelled! Dru started putting on his clothes. Baby where you going I said sadly. I can’t do this shit! No fucking privacy in this house! Dru yelled. Baby we can finish he won’t come back. Nawl I gatta go anyway he pushed me to the side and left. I searched for my clothes and followed behind him. We walked to the front porch and there that bitch was “Starr”. Dru what the fuck she yelled! Angrily hitting him she fell to her knees crying. How could you? She asked wimping. Christian ran out and grabbed her. Starr its ok he whispered, picking her up. Yo put ha down Dru yelled at Christian. Go to hell Christian said to Dru and carried Starr down the street. Dru started to follow but I stopped him. Let them go I said, grabbing his shoulder. You don’t need her I said to him. He walked back into the house and sat on the couch. Fuck! He said. Bae its ok I’m here for you she no longer matters I told Dru. Look Amber I think you’re a nice girl but I can’t do this anymore Dru said. What! I yelled. I need to make sure Starr is ok. He said again. She’s fine! I’m sure my brother will take good care of her I replied. Listen I can’t continue messing around with you I mean after today, after what I just saw I just can’t he said looking down. So what you a bitch now? I asked folding my arms. I can’t believe you! Everybody walk around talking bout how you the man and now all of a sudden you pussy whipped I looked at him in disgrace. I am a man! He stood up and yelled. Prove it I replied. He pushed me down on the couch and fucked me harder than he ever did before. It was like he let all his anger out because when he finished my legs were so sore I could barely move. He grabbed his jacket and left me laying there. Moments later Christian walked into the house. He looked at me in disgust and sat down on the other couch. What I asked. He didn’t say anything but shook his head and turned the TV on. Weird ass I said and leaned back onto the couch. Hoe he replied. What you call me I asked sitting back up. You heard me he replied. You know what you did today was foul he kept saying. I don’t care about that bitch I said rolling my eyes. That’s somebody’s feelings you playing with he stood up and yelled! Well it’s not my fault her man like this pussy better than hers I snapped back. You’re pathetic Christian said. And you’re mad because I get dick and you still haven’t got any pussy, virgin ass I laughed. You know what I’m starting to believe you like boys. Yea that’s right you’re gay! Maybe you want Dru for yourself I teased. Shut up Christian yelled at me. He walked out and went into his room slamming his door. Yea that’s right go cry I teased. I went to take a shower and got ready to go and meet my team. I walked to the park and surprisingly nobody was there. Dam where everybody at? I thought. That’s when I saw a crowd of people surrounding the corner store. I walked towards to the police and ambulance cars. What happen here? I asked. Aahhhh Starr screamed and the police officer tried to calm her down. I stood there astonished at the dead body lying in the surveillance truck. Amber! I could hear somebody calling me but I wasn’t sure who. It was Marcia waving her hand signaling me to come here. What’s up I said to my PBM clique? Girl you missed it Sierra said. What happen? I confusingly looked. We were all at the park chillin and then we heard gun shots so we start running towards the store. We came over here and saw KiKi lying there Marcia said pointing to a spot on the ground full of blood. Dam! I said. Somebody got ha ass I said again. I felt kind of bad but then again I aint really care. Well good thing it wasn’t one of yall Marcia said looking at me and Sierra. Yall seen Dru I asked? No but umm word on the street is you had that bitch Starr crying on her knees earlier Marcia said laughing. Girl she so dramatic I replied. Look at her. We all looked at Starr throw a tantrum while the police continued to calm her down. Girl that’s a shame Marcia said laughing. We walked back to Marcia’s house but Sierra had to go so I decided I’ll spend the night with her. Marcia had a little attitude with Sierra because she left to be with her boyfriend. It seem like they had been getting into it a lot lately. Dam girl where yo people at? I asked Marcia as we arrived to her house. On vacation she replied. They aint never home I said. So what’s up with you and Sierra I curiously asked? What you mean? She replied.  It just seem like lately yall aint been “agreeing” on a lot of things. I responded. Ugh she just stupid Marcia replied. Why you say that I confusingly asked? Let’s just say she lets that little boyfriend of hers tell her what to do. Marcia said back. Wow I thought yall was “BFF” I replied. Don’t get me wrong she cool but she just been acting different I don’t like it at all Marcia said looking at me. That’s why I like you better than her she smiled at me. I blushed. Marcia was absolutely gorgeous. I mean I wasn’t gay or anything but she just does something to me that I can’t even explain. See I like you because you can think for yourself Marcia said walking towards me. Sierra she can’t do that she’s always been a follower every since we were younger Marcia got closer and closer. But you, you’re special she whispered in my ear. Special? I asked. Yea she responded. Then we started kissing. It caught me off guard but I didn’t want to stop it. But before I knew it she stopped. I looked at her confused and she just got into bed and told me to “come on”…

Chapter 8 coming soon thanks for reading! J

Chapter 6

There Officer Johnson stood there with a serious look on his face. "Where the hell you been?" My auntie shouted as she jumped up from the couch. She's been with me Karen politely responded. And you are? My auntie asked with an attitude. Ma'am you've been convicted of kidnapping a minor Officer Johnson interrupted. What! Karen shouted as Officer Johnson put the hand cuffs on Karen's wrist. I didn't kidnap her, my daughter and her are friends ask her Karen said innocently looking at me. Starr do you know this lady? Officer Johnson asked. I looked confused and scared at the same time. I was so paranoid I didn't know what to say. Starr! Officer Johnson called and asked again looking serious. N-no I stuttered replying to his question. Karen hurtfully looked at me as Officer Johnson put her in the back of the police car. I stared at the police car as Officer Johnson pulled off while Officer Mooch took Karen's daughter into another car. I felt bad for Karen but I felt even worse for Karen's little girl. Get yo ass in this house Auntie Crystal yelled at me. I walked straight to my room. Get yo ass in here Auntie Crystal yelled at me again. Now I don't know what the fuck is wrong with you but... "What” I said rolling my eyes as I took a seat on the couch rudely interrupting her bitchin. Look hoe you need to stop acting like you’re grown and stay in a child's place Auntie Crystal demanded. I am grown I mumbled. Please, you don't pay a bill in here she yelled. Tsss and you don't either! I snapped back. Don't try to talk to me when you have all these broke ass niggas running in and out of here like this the fuckin coochie shop I told her. Excuse me Crystal said looking shocked. Let's get this all out you don't clean a dish in here , sweep , mop , nothing I cook , clean , wash , and take care of MYSELF! I am GROWN! I stood up and yelled. Oh please you think because you have an ass and tities you’re grown? Crystal asked. You think that just because you're 16 you can do whatever? You think just because you’ve finally reached yo period that you the shit huh? Lemme tell you something you aint shit! Crystal yelled. And you don't run shit but ya mouth she said again. No you aint shit but a hoe I angrily shouted. You slept with more than 10 niggas this past month. What I do is my business Crystal interrupted me. I knew I should have let them take you to foster care. Dam Starr every fucking thing I do is to help yo ass! I'm busting my ass for you! Working two jobs for you! But nawl you like ya mama don't appreciate shit. You don't do shit for no one but yourself I replied. STOP! Crystal yelled and slapped me across my face. I’m bout sick of people hitting me. I turned around and snaked her. She choked me up and threw me out the house. Get out! Crystal yelled. Take care of yourself and don't come back! I sat there on the steps and thought about where I was going to go. Then I just started walking to KiKi house. Who is it KiKi yelled from the other side of the door. Me I replied. OMG what happened KiKi quickly asked when she opened the door. I need a place to stay for a while. Come in KiKi said closing the door behind me. She gave an ice pack to put on my swollen face. I didn't really feel like explaining to KiKi everything that happened so I just told her "DRAMA". The phone rang so KiKi stepped out. Yea she's sitting right here KiKi said to the unknown person on the phone as she walked into the room. Who is that I mouthed to her? Dru she said handing me the phone. No I whispered back pushing the phone back to her. Take a message I said again. Take the phone she said putting it to me ear. H-hello I annoyingly answered. Yo come outside Dru demanded. Dru I'm tired I really can't. Just come to the park real quick now he said with an attitude. Alright I said hanging up the phone. I quickly put on my shoes and one of KiKi jackets I'll be back I sighed. Slowly walking to the park I thought about what Dru wanted. I mean he made it clear the other day he didn't want to be around me what's so different now. When I arrived at the park he was nowhere to be found. I sat on the bench for damnly 2 hours when he finally showed up. Yo wtf why you have me waiting I asked. Shut the fuck up girl I was busy Dru responded. Let's take a walk he said. As we walked down the block about 3 times, I listen to Dru apologize and how much he said he cared about the baby and stuff. I knew he would come around. I was happy to hear all this. Bae I love you Dru said looking into my eyes. I love you too blushing. He kissed my cheek and then my lips. His lips were warm and smooth. I felt safe again. It's like the old times. Want me to walk you home he asked. Actually I'm staying at KiKi's for the night. Yo auntie not at the house we at yo crib he said. No she is I responded. We got into a fight and she kicked me out. Dam she'll let you back in Dru said laughing. It's not funny I looked seriously. I'm just playing he said smiling. I haven't seen him smile in days! Probably months! It was awkward almost but good. You should stay at my crib Dru suggested. Nahh, KiKi's mom is expecting me anyway. C'mon just for one night he begged. Alright I finally agreed. We walked to his house in the dark. Dru doesn't really have a big house plus it’s only him and his grandma and she never leaves her room! Not for anything or anybody, she'll sit right there in that chair next to the window and just watch. It's creepy almost. Dru is that you his grand-ma yelled from the dark room. Yes granny he replied. You have company she then replied. Yea it’s just Starr he said back. Hi granny I shouted but she didn't reply. She never replies. We walked into Dru's room and he gave me some of his basketball shorts and a t-shirt to put on. I got into his bed and laid down. Goodnight he said as he kissed my forehead. Where you going I asked. I have to go meet Spook he said. I thought you stop working for him I asked again. I did but we gatta take of this baby somehow Dru replied sounding worried. Look I just need to make a few dollars to hold us up then I can try to find a job he said again. Alright I said taking a deep breath. Night bae he said again. Be careful I said as he walked off. Love you I yelled back but he had already shut the door. The night was cold. I was worried about Dru being on the streets again. I remember the day they hauled him in the back of the ambulance because he got shot. I was hurt as hell. I thought I was going to lose him but I didn't. I don't want him to go down that road again. Even though Dru isn’t the best boyfriend I know he cares and he’s just going through a lot right. That’s why I know he’ll be a good father. It took me an hour to actually fall asleep however the night was full of tosses and turns.  I woke up to emptiness on the other side of the bed. I got up and walked to the bathroom where I threw up. I have that class today but I don’t think I’m going to go. Fuck that institution I thought. I mean it’s not like they’re gonna come and drag me there. I looked around house for Dru but I didn’t see him. Dru I yelled but no answer. Chile stop yelling his grand-ma yelled to me. I walked to her door. Dru not here she then said. Do you know where he went I asked? There was a long awkward silence.  Chile he’s gone you might as well go home she finally responded. Where did he go I kept asking? That’s what wrongs with you children now days you just stupid granny said. Excuse me I asked? Chile Dru is gone go home don’t come back she kept saying. I walked back into his room and put my clothes on. Bye granny I said. Come here chile she said. I walked to her door. Yes I responded. Come in she demanded. There she sat knitting with grey hair and hell of wrinkles old as dust. I had never seen her before and I’ve probably been over here 100 times. Sit down let me get you something to eat she offered. No thank you I’m not hungry I politely replied. Chile please who you lying to? Sit down she said again. I quickly sat down because I refused to argue with her. She got her cane and walked to the kitchen. I have never ever seen her get out that chair I was shocked. She came back with a plate full of fruit with some toast with jelly scattered on it. I looked at the plate and slowly ate. Eat up you feeding for two she said sitting back down in her old crusty chair. The toast fell out my mouth as my jaw dropped. I don’t know what you’re talking about I said picking up a piece of fruit. Chile I wasn’t born yesterday I know you’re pregnant. How’d you know that I curiously asked? Well first of all you gained weight since the last time you were over here and second of all you were throwing this morning wasn’t you granny asked? I didn’t answer because I was too embarrassed. Yea see chile I see and hear everything through that window she said pointing to the glass window in her room. Everything I nervously asked? Everything she said shaking her head. You kids these days are just ridicules she kept saying. You go out here and you have sex with these pissy tail boys and you get pregnant at young ages and have all types of diseases just disgusting she nagged. Now you, Chile ya just stupid she told me. I looked at her funny. Yes I said ya stupid and you know why she asked? I shook my head no. You are sitting up here running around letting these boys control like you don’t have a mind for yourself. Now I feel sorry for that baby she kept shaking her head in disgust. That baby won’t have stable parents because you’re too young to even take care of yourself. Yall don’t have any sense to even know what it takes or how it feels to take care of a baby. She paused and then spoke again. Having kids is a job not some trophy you walk around showing off she said. Well thanks for the breakfast but I have to go now I interrupted her. I got up and sat the plate on the dresser. Goodbye I said. She looked at me and then said “Go get boy from that girl house”. What boy I asked? That boy she said and pointed to the window but no one was out there. Okay I said just walking out the door. I really think that lady is crazy. I walked out the building and spotted Dru walking out of Amber’s house. I was heated.  Suddenly I felt the anger coming and I was ready to beat her ass.

Chapter 5

Bam! Dru hit Christian so hard he instantly fell to the ground. I grabbed Dru as he brutally stomped Christian. Stop! I cried. Get the hell off me Dru yelled grabbing my neck. You cheating on me he asked gripping my neck tighter and tighter. N-n-no I coughed constantly trying to gasp for air to breathe but the grip was too tight. I stared at the anger in his eyes and the tears rolled down my face. At that moment I thought my life was over, I could feel it in my stomach. My eyes began to close and that's when Dru let me go and I fell down. I bold up like a baby and cried until I couldn't cry anymore. Christian held me but I only pushed him away. Get away! This is your entire fault I yelled in pain. I was just, Get out I pointed to the door before Christian could finish his sentence. At that moment Dru had left and I was there alone. I could only think why me? Why was I always hurting? Why didn't I get the love everyone else did? Why don’t people care about me and how I feel? I sat there thinking. Why am I here? I have no purpose of living. That's when I made a old decision and began drawing. Only I didn't draw pictures, I drew expressions and words to describe how I felt about people, things, love, and life. I ran out of things to draw so I began to scribble until my arm bled and bled nonstop. I decided I didn't want to stay in this town anymore I no longer felt welcome. I packed the little clothes and necessities I needed in a small book bag. I peeped into my auntie room and stole the money my mama left her for me. I was surprised when it was only $20. I knew mama left me more than that. Auntie Crystal must have been spending it these past few years I thought. How could she I asked myself. I hurried up and left the small apartment before she got home. I didn't want to see my auntie or hear her stupid mouth. It was hot as hell outside. I walked and walked until I didn't recognize anything around me. There was a small restaurant sitting on the corner. I decided to go in because I was starving. I ordered a double cheeseburger with fries and a shake. I don't know if it was me or the baby but I had a big appetite. You eat well the waiter asked as he came to my table with the check. Yea I said back not interested in making convo with the man. You know we have a real good dessert menu he replied smiling. No I'm stuffed but thanks I replied. You sure he said. Yes I said back. He handed me the check which was $13.71. I looked down at the only $20 bill I had. I figured I needed this to last for awhile. Instead I quickly sat the check on the counter and snuck out the door before anyone could notice I was gone. I ran trying to look back to see if someone saw me I was almost hit by a car. I fell straight to the ground. I was in more pain than ever. I laid there motionless all night. I woke up to a dog licking my face. Mommy look at that homeless lady the little girl holding the dog leash said pointing at me. Now that's nice the Mama said looking at me. Excuse me, are u ok she asked me. Yes I said getting up. You don't look alright come here let me give you a ride child the middle-aged lady said sincerely. No I'm fine I promised. No you're not look its bad over here get in the car. It seemed like I couldn't argue with her so I got in and did as she said. Are you hungry she asked looking at me concerned? No ma'am I replied. Uh oh I thought. I felt sick I quickly opened the door and vomited. When I returned the lady felt my head and asked "Child you're pregnant aren't you?” No I quickly answered trying to look more shocked than ever but somehow she knew I was lying. Yes you are she looked at me and replied. I looked down sadly. I still couldn't believe I was pregnant it all seemed like a horrible dream I couldn't awake from. The nice lady name was Karen she drove me to her house where she fed me and gave me clothes so I could bathe. She had a pretty good home to. Everything was nice and colorful. I knew she was rich. This little girl had a room made for a princess. I couldn't believe it. Wow I said admiring all the beautiful sculptures in Karen's house. It's nice isn't it Karen asked. It’s beautiful I replied back. Yea it's something Karen smiled but it looked almost like a sad smile. Well you know I have to take you home or else this would be considered kidnap Karen looked at me seriously. Yes I said sadly. I almost didn't want to leave. Can I just stay this one night and leave first thing in the morning I begged. Karen stared at me for a long time. Ok but first thing in the morning she said. Yes thank you I smiled. Let me show you to the guest room. The room was painted light pink with really cute polka dots. It was decorated with cute little colorful curtains and kiddy candy rugs. Excuse all the toys, this used to be my other daughter's room Karen said looking down. Its ok I said. Well there's extra cover in the closet if you need it she directed me. Thank you I politely said. As I lay in the bed I thought about what Karen said about her daughter. I wonder where she was and why Karen made that face when she talked about her. It was a sad sigh like she was reminiscing on something bad that had happened. The bright room made it impossible for me to sleep I stared at the light stars that were located at the ceiling of the wall. It reminded me of this book my mama used to read me when I was little. I really missed my mom. Somehow, I could still feel her spirit inside of me. I silently cried myself to sleep. I woke up to the smell of bacon and pancakes. A smell I wasn't used to at all. Good Morning Karen smiled as I walked into the kitchen. Morning I replied. Breakfast will be ready shortly go get ready. I got dressed into the clothes I had packed and quickly came back downstairs for breakfast. At the breakfast table Karen and her daughter prayed. Something I have never done before. They both shared what they were thankful for. What are you thankful for Star the little girl asked me? I looked at them both for a long time. Umm I stuttered. I'm thankful for life I lied. Karen looked at me and smiled. Ok eat up we have to get you home. In the car Karen dropped me off to my auntie house. I knew it was about to be drama but I didn't expect Karen to get out the car with me. What are doing I asked trying to stop her. Well your parents need to know where you've been. No that's not necessary I assured. No it's only right Karen said ringing the bell. Shit I thought about how my auntie may react. Ding Dong the doorbell rang again. Suddenly the door open and surprises to my face. I was in shock!

Chapter 4

I woke up in the hospital bed. I looked around and saw nobody there the doctor came in and gave me some peculiar medicine. She said to take the red pill before I eat and then the blue pill after I was done with breakfast. I struggled swallowing the pill. Umm excuse me I said to the doctor. Yes she said with a weird smile. Why am I here I asked confusingly. No worries nobody's going to harm you here we're here to help she said again with this weird smile only this time it was fake. I looked around to the all white room with no windows. I was dressed in all white pants with an all white tee-shirt. Your session will begin in 15minutes so eat quickly the doctor began to talk. What session I said looking very confused. I looked down at the nasty food. The bacon looked dry and the eggs weren't fully cooked. A few seconds later there was a knock on the door. Yes I yelled. This shiny lady with a red bow and red lipstick came into the room with a notepad and pen. How are you feeling she said smiling? I didn't say anything I just looked. My name is Ms. Cherry and I will be your guidance counselor for these next 12 weeks. 12 I repeated in my head. Now everything you tell will be confidential and what is said in this room stays in this room. Will I be staying here for 12 weeks I asked? No you actually you get to leave today she said smiling, Now we have an hour let’s get started shall we. Another question I said interrupting her. Yes she looked and me impatiently. Why am I here I looked around and asked curiously. Well you're here because of the situation that occurred yesterday afternoon. I looked confusingly "yesterday afternoon" I repeated in my head. We won't discuss that right away let’s start off with getting to know each other. The session lasted way longer than an hour. I mean this bitch was talking for days. When I finally left it was about 3 in the afternoon. I didn't feel like going home so I sat in park for a couple of hours. I couldn't believe I was pregnant. I mean how could Dru do this to me he knew I wasn't ready for a baby. The worst was going home to tell my auntie. I mean it’s not like she'll care anyway, she barely pays attention to me. I sat and cried on the swing until I was approached by Christian. Hey he said smiling. Boy his smile was so beautiful. I quickly wiped and tears and replied hey in a soft voice. What's wrong he looked concerned? Nothing I bitterly replied. The last thing I needed was for some new guy to be all in my business. Well it doesn't look like nothing Christian sat in the swing next to me. I’m fine I said back. I got up and began to walk away. Hey Christian said catching up to me. I stopped. If you need to talk here's my number. I looked down at his hand where he was holding a slip of paper with his number. No thanks I replied walking away. I wanted to take it but I just couldn't and plus Dru would kill me and him. I didn't need any more drama in my hands. When I got home there was no surprise that my auntie wasn't there she's never home. I checked the house phone to see if there were any missed calls from Dru but I wasn't shocked when there wasn't. I began thinking about how I was going to tell him the big news, about the baby and all. I paced back and forth. Then the phone rang. I quickly answered happily because it was Dru! Hello I said sounding kind of shaky. Where the fuck you been? Dru shouted through the phone. I been calling you all day he said again. No you haven't I quickly replied. Are you testing my intelligence he asked demandingly? No I rolled my eyes and replied. I'm on my way over there he said hanging up the phone. I cleaned up and prepared myself for him. I always have to look a certain way around him or he gets mad. I put on my pink and white stripe shorts with my pink tank top (this was his favorite pajama outfit). I went to the bathroom and did my hair real quick and then there was a knock on the door. Coming I yelled. I opened the door and to my surprise it was Christian. What I stared at him annoyed. You left this at my house he said waving the folded paper in my face. I quickly snatched it wtf I yelled. Don't worry I didn't read it he said. Well thanks I replied attempting to close the door but he stepped his foot in it. What I said again. I was hoping we could talk he said desperately. I'm kind of busy I replied. I won't take long I promise he assured. I’m listening I said looking at him. Well can I come in he asked. Omg I opened the door for him to step in the hallway. I checked to see if I didn't see Dru anywhere in sight and slightly shut the door. Oh this is nice Christian said looking around. Cut the bulshit was sup I asked looking more annoyed than ever. Ok ok he said laughing as if I cracked a joke of something. I stood there with my hands on my hips waiting. Well I wanted to ask you about the other night Christian said biting his lip like he was nervous or something. What about it I snapped back. Look I saw you and Dru arguing and I saw what he did to you... And! I said interrupting him. You don't have to take that Christian said back. Listen what me and Dru do is our business I would really appreciate it if you stay out of it I yelled. He looked and said nothing and walked towards the door. As soon I opened the door there stood Dru looking angrier than ever I ever seen him before.

Chapter 3

We approached the "PMB" or you can say "Pretty Mixed Barbs" clique like thugs. Well if it isn't that dirty crew what's they name oh yea "GMB" the leader of PBM Marcia said making fun of our clique. Bitch I'll Beat, STOP I yelled at KiKi before she could finish her sentence. "GMB" whispered Amber lost as a puppy. Yea trick GMB "Getting Money Barbies" Chloe yelled looking at Amber rolling her eyes. Amber shocked that we heard her looked down in fright. Ok ew like seriously what yall want Marcia asked looking disgusted at our presence. To beat yo ass KiKi yelled getting her face. No we not gone fight them I told KiKi, pushing her away from Marcia's face. Listen tell yo lil control dummy back there yea Amber she need to stop calling my man before that pretty little face of hers is scarred for life I said mean mugging the whole PBM crew. On that note we up I grabbed KiKi and Cloe and we all walked off. Man why you aint let me hit her KiKi asked mad. It's not even worth it and plus I can use her for info on Dru I said evil laughing. We stayed at the park until about 10 o clock at night just sitting around laughing and talking about people. This is what I loved just chillin on a summer day with the people you love. What's sup boo Dru said as he approached us. Hey I said, looking up in his dark brown eyes smiling. Let's go he said. Iight yall imma catch yall later I said, waving bye to KiKi and Cloe. Dru slow down I said, trying to catch up to him. It wasn't until we got to the end of the block when he pimp slapped me. I instantly fell to the ground. Ouch! I yelled, holding my face in tears. Didn't I tell you to take them dam clothes off? You want to walk around here looking like a hoe! Dru yelled at me. Do you? He yelled again kicking me in the stomach. STOP! I screamed. Please stop I won’t wear it anymore I promise I wept on the ground. I know you won't he said spitting on me walking away. I was so hurt and weak I couldn't move. The streets were dark and no one was around. I laid there in misery. I woke up in an unknown bed with a wet rag on my face. Good Morning Christian said with this warm smile. I quickly got up and replied where am I? My house Christian laughed. You were lying on the ground last night so I picked you up and carried you to my room and laid you down on the bed Christian said gazing in my eyes. I couldn't stare too long he made me feel some type of way I don't know how though. Where is my, don't worry all your things are over there Christian said pointing to a chair near the bed. What time is it I asked? Its noon why Christian replied curiously. Shit I shouted I have to go, rushing out of the door. I was supposed to be ready by 11 for the interview with my auntie she's going to kill me. I snuck in my house through the back so I could avoid the drama with my auntie. Star! My auntie yelled. Fuck I whispered to myself. Yes I replied annoyed. Come here now she shouted back. I walked to the living room where I found her sitting there looking more aggravated than ever.  Where the fuck you been? She immediately asked. I spent the night at Kiki’s I lied. So you can't call now Auntie Crystal asked. I'm sorry I forgot my phone here I lied again. It won't happen again I said sucking up to her annoyance. Who broke my $15,000 vase she shouted back. The hell if I know I'm barely here I told her. Who the hell you talking to she said, getting in my face. You know you aint shit and never will be shit my auntie always told me this since I was little. Ya gonna be just like ya mama depending on every nigga for some cash you aint never gone be nothing more than shit she said laughing. The tears began to fall from my eyes. Clean this shit up and get out my face she shouted. I picked up the glass I had broken and headed to the bathroom.  As I turned on the shower I noticed a bruise on my face in the mirror. “Ahh” it stung, as I touch it with my hand. It looked like someone beat my ass. It wasn't the first time Dru put his hands on me though. He promised to stop several times but he lets his anger control his actions. I knew he was sorry and didn't mean it. Ehhh, I threw up all over the sink. I don't know what has been going on with me these past few weeks but I've been feeling nauseous and been throwing up everywhere. And I've missed my period twice. I decided I'll go to the clinic today and check it out. I arrived at the clinic and as usual it was crowed. I grabbed a number and took a seat. Number 5 the commander shouted. I looked down at my number (22) and thought dam I'm going to here forever. They finally called my number and escorted me to the back. The lady checked me up and came back into the room. She looked at the papers then back at me. Well you seem to be healthy ma'am but can I asked you something personal the Dr. asked. Yes I replied, looking at her blankly. Are you having sex she then replied, with a very serious face? N-no I stuttered, scared as hell. She looked back down at the papers then back at me, are you sure she asked again? Why what's wrong I quickly asked getting scared. Ma'am it seems to be that you're 12weeks pregnant the doctor said to me. The words shot at me like a nearby bullet. My heart stopped and I blacked out.

Chapter 2

"Why the fuck you going through my phone?" Dru yelled! What? I said. I didn’t go through your phone I replied lying my ass off. He gave me a evil look, snatched the phone out my hand and left. There I stood weak to my bones. I didn't even have the strength to confront him about the Amber chick. I was too afraid. Fuck! I yelled, breaking every glass that was in my sight. Once again I let him get away with murder. I hate myself, FML I kept saying, pacing back and forth in the living room. Suddenly there was a knock on the door. I wasn't sure who it was because I know my auntie was still at work. I stopped and waited, hoping the unknown person would leave but they knock again. Who is it I curiously asked, wiping the tears away from my face. Umm n-next door n-n-neighbor I just moved over here my name is Christian the scared boy answered. I cracked the door, yes I asked. I was wondering if you could show me around a little bit he politely asked. I would love to but I really can't I'm busy sorry I gave him this phony sorry look as if I was really was sorry. Oh well maybe next time then he replied, walking away with this mysterious smile. It was beautiful to. I watched him walk off and shut the door. I actually did feel kind of bad letting him down but I really didn't feel like going outside at all.  "I wish that I could have this Moment 4 Life" I heard my phone ring from the bedroom. Hello I answered not feeling like talking. Girl where u been all day my friend KiKi yelled. In the house chillin I replied. Girl come outside everybody is out and plus it's a new boy that lives across the street from you and guess what she anxiously asked. What? I replied. He's really cute she said in a flirtatious way. Yea he came over asking me to show him around I replied. "Ohh Lemme Find Out" she said. I laughed, girl you is a whole fool I told her. True but come outside she replied. Alright give me a minute I said hanging up. I started to pick up the broken glass I threw but then I really didn't feel like it so I just threw on my shorts and my Hollister tank with my flip flops and left the house. I walked down to the park and there I saw everybody. Great last thing I need is for everybody trying to be all in my face I thought.  I instantly spotted KiKi and my other friend Cloe and walked towards them. On my way I was stopped by Dru. He grabbed my wrist (the same wrist he had gripped earlier) what the hell you doing out here with those little shorts on he angrily asked. The’re not little and all my shorts are like this what you talking about I quickly snapped back. You think I want all these niggas looking at yo ass Dru asked me. They are all of your friends and besides people gone look at it anyway rather you like it or not I said with an attitude. Aye Dru C'mon man we gatta go his friend shouted! I'll be back and when I get back you better have changed he said letting go of my wrist. I rolled my eyes and continued walking towards KiKi and Cloe. Hey girl they approached me as I walked up. I sat there on the bench and listened to them gossip about people on the block. I remember when we were all little we used to sit in this exact same spot and talk about everybody. I never understood why though. I guess it was a way of making us feel better about ourselves. To think about it now I don't feel good about it all, I actually feel bad. I remember my mama used to tell me before she died to treat people the way you want to be treated. I guess that's why I get treated so badly now. Nobody respects me, not even my own auntie she only cares about her filthy job and dating all these corny dudes. Sometimes I wonder how my life would be if my mom was still alive. We probably wouldn't even still be living in this neighborhood. My mama used to always say "When I'm rich I'll buy you a big castle and we will be at peace". I miss her so much and she was so beautiful. She had long silky black hair, slim she was about 5'6, her soft caramel skin hands were was smooth and I always admired her light brown eyes. She looked like a model that had been cut out a magazine. I always wished I had her beauty. My mom used to tell me I looked just like my dad but I never met him. Star! KiKi waved her hands in my face. Huh I said snapping out of my day dreams. Umm Straggs at 6:35 look at Sierra and her team. Ugh I rolled my eyes. Looks like they got a new troop Cloe said. Yea her name Amber replied KiKi. I look at the light skinned girl with the long blondish/brownish hair. She had grey eyes and she wore blue jean Levi shorts with an off to shoulder shirt showing off her belly ring. Yo Star what you looking at KiKi said snapping me out my thoughts again. Yo that's the bitch that was calling Dru phone earlier I replied. Word? KiKi said taking her earrings off. We all started getting in fighting mode and began walking towards Sierra and her team. It was about to go down!